Wednesday, someone in the Facebook support group that I'm in asked about the timing of their trigger shot with Lupron to make sure it sounded right. There are two different trigger shots you can give yourself for IVF and they are rather different from my understanding. I replied back telling her that I did the exact same thing with my cycle 18 months ago (has it really been that long!?). She asked some follow up questions and I'd answer them based on what I could remember. Turns out she uses my first doctor and sounds like she's following a very similar protocol to mine. She messaged me yesterday to ask more questions about retrieval and what to expect. It was kind of nice being able to help calm and inform someone going through this roller coaster of a process. She had her retrieval this morning and now it's more of the waiting and worrying game for her.
It's moments like this that I'm glad I started this blog, even if it's mostly been friends and family following our journey and not necessarily other women going through IVF. When I learned I'd need IVF, that was my first stop- Google to find other women who'd shared their experiences. I found a few blogs/vlogs that I enjoyed and watched them all. I've been doing the same thing since learning we are having twins. I know every experience is different, but somehow seeing someone else make it through the process helps remind me that I've got this. I'm glad I was there to help that woman out, even though we'd never met. I'm so happy that we went public with our journey to be able to help others.
I've been wondering what to do with my blog once the kids get here. I'm more apprehensive to share so much of their lives with the world when I don't know who's reading. Once they come, I'm considering using a Facebook group that I can monitor who sees each post and pictures while still keeping everyone informed. The blog may fall to the wayside and become less frequent and a tad more guarded when it comes to personal details. I haven't decided yet. I'm torn because I know how much these types of blogs have helped me but I want to protect my children's privacy.
I've also been thinking about how my blog posts (and my sharing them on Facebook) affect others who might be in an earlier stage of their infertility journey. Sometimes I hate clicking that share button on Facebook because I'm never sure if someone is going to see our good news and have their heart break just a little bit more. I completely understand that feeling; I experienced it often. Many nights of walking the dog turned into my own little pity party. I unfollowed alot of people on Facebook during our journey. I didn't unfriend them, but I wanted to control when I got to see their baby/grandbaby updates. I think about the women out there who just want a kid and can't have one; I feel guilty every time I publish and share a post that we finally are where we were hoping to be years ago. So I don't blame anyone who ignores my posts or unfollows me. I don't know that I'll ever know who you are, but know this. Don't give up; your dreams will come true eventually, just maybe not exactly in the way you first expected. Please reach out if you ever want to talk. I know a great Facebook support group I can refer you to as well; there are women at all stages of infertility there willing to share, help, love, celebrate, and mourn with you.
Well, that post went a slightly different direction than I'd originally intended (even though it was kind of a spur of the moment post). Kind of a tangent post, but still something I wanted to get out there. Thanks for listening. :)
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